This is an abusive relationship
Autism explains the anger
fear
anxiety
explosiveness
depression
your special flavor of rudeness with sprinkles on top
You’ve been bullied
Left out
Socially isolated
Explanations do not trump unkind words.
They still beat down the soul
Because I love you,
I forgive you.
I not only forgive,
sometimes I forget
I love you but…
If you were my boyfriend,
I would dump you.
If you were my husband,
I would leave you.
If you were my friend,
I would quit you.
But you are my child.
Aggressiveness
Don’t speak of it
It hurts so deeply
There is shame
We fear judgement
Don’t say it aloud
What will they think
Always on guard
Waiting for the ball to drop
The trigger
The ignition
The bomb
Life in a war zone
We hear screams
when there are none
Relaxation?
Quiet?
Is fleeting
A treasure we hold tight
The calm before the storm
The storm always comes
Not sooner
Definitely later…
Collateral damage lies in it’s wake
Holes in the walls
Cracks in the doors
Collectables broken
Will the blows become physical
for you
for me
Will the switch flip
Goodbye self-control
Read the signs
can’t afford to ignore them
I love you but…
If you were my boyfriend,
I would dump you.
If you were my husband,
I would leave you.
If you were my friend,
I would quit you.
You’re my child
I will help you
I will nurture you
I will guide you
In sickness and health
I will point you towards the light
As long as I have breath
As long as I have strength
Until you stand on your own
Until the bough breaks
Just a little something I'm thinking about today...
Many autism parents are afraid to speak of the physical and mental abuse that we go through. In quiet corners, I hear stories that make me weep. The loss of control is hurtful to all parties. It devastates our children, when they shift back into reality. Aggressiveness or violence from an autistic child is never an excuse for parents to harm them. We were put here to help them. Read the signs, get them the help, give yourself a break, before the bough breaks.
*Edit
This is not everyone's story. Autism is not one thing. Each child as unique as a precious snowflake. I am immersed in a community of parents and those on the spectrum who do have similar experiences. While I have many whose children don't have these issues. This story is not about me. It's not just about my kids. It's about many parents and many children.
*Edit
This is not everyone's story. Autism is not one thing. Each child as unique as a precious snowflake. I am immersed in a community of parents and those on the spectrum who do have similar experiences. While I have many whose children don't have these issues. This story is not about me. It's not just about my kids. It's about many parents and many children.
